Why can't we face ourselves?
If there is anyone or anything in this entire world that I am shit scared to face, it's me. I don't remember a single day in my entire life of 30 years when I deliberately sat all alone and looked at myself. I don't mean looking at my physical body, but my mind which is obsessed with thinking all day. The mind hasn't stopped thinking ever since it had become capable of thinking. My mind creates thoughts, then thinks about those thoughts, trapping itself in an endless loop, one I have no control over. I call it the subconscious mind, a part of my mind that I believe is separate from my "actual" mind and I have accepted that I have no control over it. My subconscious mind runs in the background all day and night, while I go about my life using my actual mind. I treat my subconscious mind like any other internal part of my body that has its own intelligence, like the heart or liver which functions without my thinking. I use my actual mind, which I think I have c...