That Guy Ajay

I often wondered why I have the anxieties I do. Why am I different from others? Why do I worry about things that most people don't even think about? When did things go wrong? Is it possible to overcome these anxieties as though they never existed? These questions lingered in my mind as I meticulously traced back through my life, year by year for as long as I could remember recalling every negative incident and experience. Not surprisingly, there were countless, helpless and hopeless incidents and I can recollect them vividly. Many of these happened when I was between 4 and 15 years old, and I can see now how they shaped who I am today. It was a great relief to find out the reasons behind my anxieties. I have found myself blaming various things like family, friends, teachers and environment for making me who I am today. I was convinced that I wasn't born with anxieties, but picked them up along the way. No matter who you are, where you were born and who you were born to, no chil...

You are either greater or lesser only in comparison. I still vividly remember as a child how I would compare myself with others and in that comparision I would always feel inferior. Because wasn't exceptional in studies, sports or particularly cute and charming. This early experience developed inferiority complex that I haven't fully overcome, although I am proud of what I have become and where I am heading in life. Comparison seems fair and reasonable. In childhood we were taught to compete with others and do better than them. Competition is essentially another form of comparison. To compete is to compare and do better, always. We were led to beleive that the only way to progress is by comparison and competing against those around us. However, the problem is that competition is endless. There is always someone better than you. Even when you reach the top, you continue to compare to maintain your position. There perpetual pressure to perform better and better to stay and remain...